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29 December 2008
Death / Re-Birth Part 2
On July 13, 2008, two weeks before my father passed away... I had another loss. My little sisters ex-boyfriend now like a brother to both of us. Was killed while defending his country in Wanat, Afghan.
Please view enclosed link for his amazing story. of SPC Sergio Abad 1987-2008
http://www.arlingtoncemetery.net/ssabad.htm
I was fortunate to go to Serio's services in Arlington National Cemetary in Arlinton, VA. The saddest and most beautiful funeral services I have ever EVER Attended. God Bless you Sergio!
You are loved and MISSED!!
At this time the only thing on my mind was getting the HELL out of DODGE!
View Part 3 for the final outcome of the last 5 months!!
Make peace with your past so it doesn't screw up the present! -- unknown
Please view enclosed link for his amazing story. of SPC Sergio Abad 1987-2008
http://www.arlingtoncemetery.net/ssabad.htm
I was fortunate to go to Serio's services in Arlington National Cemetary in Arlinton, VA. The saddest and most beautiful funeral services I have ever EVER Attended. God Bless you Sergio!
You are loved and MISSED!!
At this time the only thing on my mind was getting the HELL out of DODGE!
View Part 3 for the final outcome of the last 5 months!!
Make peace with your past so it doesn't screw up the present! -- unknown
The last 5 Months - Death and Rebirth
It's been an eventful last five months. So much has happened. I'm not quite sure where to begin.
About 8 months ago I contacted my father. My parents divorced when I was a baby and I spent my childhood growing up with my mother and grandfather.
In March 2008 about a month before I ended my relationship with my boyfriend, my therapist/bodytalk lady asked me what I had learned from my relationship with my ex boyfriend? Hummm what did I learn? Being an only child, I learned how to listen, and how to be more selfish, in the sense of taking care of myself and then of others. Learned not to neglect myself and put others before my important needs. I also realized why he was in my life for a short period of time. Not only to get on my nerves and try my patience. How relationships can push those limits!!! LOL During one of our conversations in December of 2007, my ex boyfriend and I were discussing our parents and our relationships. My mom and I do not keep in touch as often as we should, and he said to me, don't loose the chance to tell her how much you love her, and try to be there. I took that and started thinking about my father. So I wrote him a letter. I have one memory of seeing my father in 2003 or 2004, when he came to Miami to visit. I was angry, resentful, and sad. I had waited for 23 years of my life to meet my father who was lost?? I was disappointed by the man I had met. So I discontinued communication, until this year.
Thank GOD for those little miracles. I sent the letter and waited.
a little over a month in April 2008 I rec'd a phone call from him. My intuition told me that he was angry with me. Angry that I just disconnected myself from him. Sure enough when we finally spoke about it, my inner voice was right!
We spoke almost everyday after that. We argued, joked, laughed poked fun, and my father acted like a father tell me a few very important things I needed to know and hear... already knew, but held weight coming from my dad.
Here is the biggest miracle. We stopped talking because he was an alcoholic and was consumed by his addiction. I didn't want a part of that lifestyle. He had been clean for the past 3 years when we finally spoke. I am so so VERY Proud of him, because his fight, courage, and strength, gave me a new found hope. Hope that I have my father MY father in my life!! The father I always craved, wanted, needed to fulfill that void I carried throughout my entire childhood. The void was filled!! How complete I feel.
One of the most joyful moments was to hear my father on the other end of the phone say," I LOVE YOU!" and even better when he heard me say, " I LOVE YOU TOO!" He cried...
Then on July 25, 2008 at 7PM, I rec'd distressing message form father. He was very upset. I received this overwhelming feeling of my heart in my stomach, butterflies so I called him back. There was no answer. Very odd. He always answers.
So, I waited and about 20 minutes later I rec;d a phone call from my fathers wife that my father had a heart attack and that he was being air lifted to the hospital.
A nervous wreck I proceeded to do bodytalk remotely. I used myself as a serigant, and half way through the treatment I felt very cold, it was strange, but ignored my worst fear and continued on. About 5 minutes after I the bodytalk treatment I did for my father, I got the phone call that he passed away.
Leonard Francis Wheeler died at age 51.
I cried, and screamed... no, no, NO! I layed in bed for 2 days, wore the same cloths for a week, and went for a bodytalk treatment. I was heart broken. Still am , but it gets easier. I finally went work after 4 days and went back to my karate school that I train at for support, and training.
Five months later, it still hurts. I'm in tears typing this right now. Somedays it easier and other days it isn't. I am grateful for what time we had, and even more grateful to have gotten to know him, become close, and tell him that I loved him. I think it made things easier. Do I wish we had more time??? Of course, I was angry with GOD, myself, the world for not allowing us more time. I'm beginning to understand that things happened the way it was ment to.
It's given me a new found strength and understanding of myself, and life in general.
A little interesting piece of information, My father had a tattoo of my name over his heart. it said Priscilla Mae... I never knew that until a June 2008. Priscilla-Mae is my model name and swim wear designs name and logo. Interesting huh?
Leonard Francis Wheeler August 21, 1957- July 25, 2008 - I miss you dad, I love you, and I will always be your little girl.
Priscilla Mae
About 8 months ago I contacted my father. My parents divorced when I was a baby and I spent my childhood growing up with my mother and grandfather.
In March 2008 about a month before I ended my relationship with my boyfriend, my therapist/bodytalk lady asked me what I had learned from my relationship with my ex boyfriend? Hummm what did I learn? Being an only child, I learned how to listen, and how to be more selfish, in the sense of taking care of myself and then of others. Learned not to neglect myself and put others before my important needs. I also realized why he was in my life for a short period of time. Not only to get on my nerves and try my patience. How relationships can push those limits!!! LOL During one of our conversations in December of 2007, my ex boyfriend and I were discussing our parents and our relationships. My mom and I do not keep in touch as often as we should, and he said to me, don't loose the chance to tell her how much you love her, and try to be there. I took that and started thinking about my father. So I wrote him a letter. I have one memory of seeing my father in 2003 or 2004, when he came to Miami to visit. I was angry, resentful, and sad. I had waited for 23 years of my life to meet my father who was lost?? I was disappointed by the man I had met. So I discontinued communication, until this year.
Thank GOD for those little miracles. I sent the letter and waited.
a little over a month in April 2008 I rec'd a phone call from him. My intuition told me that he was angry with me. Angry that I just disconnected myself from him. Sure enough when we finally spoke about it, my inner voice was right!
We spoke almost everyday after that. We argued, joked, laughed poked fun, and my father acted like a father tell me a few very important things I needed to know and hear... already knew, but held weight coming from my dad.
Here is the biggest miracle. We stopped talking because he was an alcoholic and was consumed by his addiction. I didn't want a part of that lifestyle. He had been clean for the past 3 years when we finally spoke. I am so so VERY Proud of him, because his fight, courage, and strength, gave me a new found hope. Hope that I have my father MY father in my life!! The father I always craved, wanted, needed to fulfill that void I carried throughout my entire childhood. The void was filled!! How complete I feel.
One of the most joyful moments was to hear my father on the other end of the phone say," I LOVE YOU!" and even better when he heard me say, " I LOVE YOU TOO!" He cried...
Then on July 25, 2008 at 7PM, I rec'd distressing message form father. He was very upset. I received this overwhelming feeling of my heart in my stomach, butterflies so I called him back. There was no answer. Very odd. He always answers.
So, I waited and about 20 minutes later I rec;d a phone call from my fathers wife that my father had a heart attack and that he was being air lifted to the hospital.
A nervous wreck I proceeded to do bodytalk remotely. I used myself as a serigant, and half way through the treatment I felt very cold, it was strange, but ignored my worst fear and continued on. About 5 minutes after I the bodytalk treatment I did for my father, I got the phone call that he passed away.
Leonard Francis Wheeler died at age 51.
I cried, and screamed... no, no, NO! I layed in bed for 2 days, wore the same cloths for a week, and went for a bodytalk treatment. I was heart broken. Still am , but it gets easier. I finally went work after 4 days and went back to my karate school that I train at for support, and training.
Five months later, it still hurts. I'm in tears typing this right now. Somedays it easier and other days it isn't. I am grateful for what time we had, and even more grateful to have gotten to know him, become close, and tell him that I loved him. I think it made things easier. Do I wish we had more time??? Of course, I was angry with GOD, myself, the world for not allowing us more time. I'm beginning to understand that things happened the way it was ment to.
It's given me a new found strength and understanding of myself, and life in general.
A little interesting piece of information, My father had a tattoo of my name over his heart. it said Priscilla Mae... I never knew that until a June 2008. Priscilla-Mae is my model name and swim wear designs name and logo. Interesting huh?
Leonard Francis Wheeler August 21, 1957- July 25, 2008 - I miss you dad, I love you, and I will always be your little girl.
Priscilla Mae
01 July 2008
The Daily Motivator
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Fresh opportunities to be
Appreciate your shortcomings for where they have brought you. Then release them and be free to rise above the limitations.
Savor the disappointments one last time and remember all you have learned from them. Then let them go and eagerly look forward to new and fruitful experiences.
Sincerely and completely forgive those who have brought you pain, including yourself. And feel the healing that immediately takes hold.
Be truly thankful for having been through so much. Then get busy creating the best of what can be.
Let go of the useless drama that is already over. Hold on to the positive value that you've gained from it all.
Always there are new possibilities to explore, new ways to grow, and new worlds to experience. With each new now, the world is filled with fresh opportunities to be.
-- Ralph Marston
Fresh opportunities to be
Appreciate your shortcomings for where they have brought you. Then release them and be free to rise above the limitations.
Savor the disappointments one last time and remember all you have learned from them. Then let them go and eagerly look forward to new and fruitful experiences.
Sincerely and completely forgive those who have brought you pain, including yourself. And feel the healing that immediately takes hold.
Be truly thankful for having been through so much. Then get busy creating the best of what can be.
Let go of the useless drama that is already over. Hold on to the positive value that you've gained from it all.
Always there are new possibilities to explore, new ways to grow, and new worlds to experience. With each new now, the world is filled with fresh opportunities to be.
-- Ralph Marston
Daily Motivation
Run joyfully toward life
Run joyfully toward life and embrace it with open arms. Each day brings its own treasure in the flavors, aromas, sights, sounds, situations, experiences and interactions that come your way.
Don't get bogged down attempting to resist or deny what has already happened. Put your energy into using what you have to make life better than ever.
Embrace the beauty, the joy, the wonder and the abundance of life. At the same time, embrace the challenges, the setbacks, the disappointments and the difficulties.
Be genuinely thankful for every moment, whatever it may contain. For in each moment is your opportunity to fully live, to grow, to learn, to experience, to share and to create unique, lasting value.
Welcome the ever-changing richness of life as it dances before your eyes in ways you've never seen before. Join passionately in that dance and be a part of the richness.
Follow the winding path as it moves up, down, over and around through the steadily increasing abundance and fulfillment of your life. Know more fully, as each moment passes, the profound joy of being.
-- Ralph Marston
Run joyfully toward life and embrace it with open arms. Each day brings its own treasure in the flavors, aromas, sights, sounds, situations, experiences and interactions that come your way.
Don't get bogged down attempting to resist or deny what has already happened. Put your energy into using what you have to make life better than ever.
Embrace the beauty, the joy, the wonder and the abundance of life. At the same time, embrace the challenges, the setbacks, the disappointments and the difficulties.
Be genuinely thankful for every moment, whatever it may contain. For in each moment is your opportunity to fully live, to grow, to learn, to experience, to share and to create unique, lasting value.
Welcome the ever-changing richness of life as it dances before your eyes in ways you've never seen before. Join passionately in that dance and be a part of the richness.
Follow the winding path as it moves up, down, over and around through the steadily increasing abundance and fulfillment of your life. Know more fully, as each moment passes, the profound joy of being.
-- Ralph Marston
19 June 2008
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Run toward the challenges
Of course it's difficult. That's what makes it so valuable.
The time, effort and commitment you put into reaching the goal have their own rewards, over and above the achievement itself. They make you stronger, more disciplined, and more effective.
When great effort is called for, great opportunities abound. When challenges and difficulties surround you, there is much value to be created.
Instead of cursing the need for sustained and focused effort, be genuinely thankful for the chance. For you are designed and equipped to get things done, and life is superbly rewarding when you do.
When difficult work is called for, step quickly forward with enthusiasm. It is truly your moment to shine, to grow, and to create according to your best expectations.
Run toward the challenges. It is in those challenges that you will fulfill your greatest dreams.
-- Ralph Marston
Run toward the challenges
Of course it's difficult. That's what makes it so valuable.
The time, effort and commitment you put into reaching the goal have their own rewards, over and above the achievement itself. They make you stronger, more disciplined, and more effective.
When great effort is called for, great opportunities abound. When challenges and difficulties surround you, there is much value to be created.
Instead of cursing the need for sustained and focused effort, be genuinely thankful for the chance. For you are designed and equipped to get things done, and life is superbly rewarding when you do.
When difficult work is called for, step quickly forward with enthusiasm. It is truly your moment to shine, to grow, and to create according to your best expectations.
Run toward the challenges. It is in those challenges that you will fulfill your greatest dreams.
-- Ralph Marston
16 June 2008
Daily Motivation
Monday, June 16, 2008
Curiosity
Curiosity will take you to wonderful places you never would have otherwise known you could go. Curiosity is, at its heart, a love for life and everything in it.
Those who are the most authentically and persistently curious are the best informed. Simple, sincere curiosity brings a richness of wisdom and unique experience into your life.
The biggest impediment to curiosity is arrogance. For in order to be truly curious, you must first admit that you do not know.
Keep in mind that intelligence is more than a measure of what you already know. Intelligence depends on always being open to learning new things, some of which will contradict and supersede what you already thought you knew.
Though curiosity will often compel you to undertake great effort, curiosity itself requires no effort. Drop your pretenses, allow yourself to be curious, and you are.
There is no end to the wonder that you can discover, wherever you are, whatever you do. Be curious, and be fully alive.
-- Ralph Marston
Curiosity
Curiosity will take you to wonderful places you never would have otherwise known you could go. Curiosity is, at its heart, a love for life and everything in it.
Those who are the most authentically and persistently curious are the best informed. Simple, sincere curiosity brings a richness of wisdom and unique experience into your life.
The biggest impediment to curiosity is arrogance. For in order to be truly curious, you must first admit that you do not know.
Keep in mind that intelligence is more than a measure of what you already know. Intelligence depends on always being open to learning new things, some of which will contradict and supersede what you already thought you knew.
Though curiosity will often compel you to undertake great effort, curiosity itself requires no effort. Drop your pretenses, allow yourself to be curious, and you are.
There is no end to the wonder that you can discover, wherever you are, whatever you do. Be curious, and be fully alive.
-- Ralph Marston
13 June 2008
Priscilla-Mae Forum
My friend Paul recently uploaded a forum to my website. Please follow the link and join. Look forward to hearing from all of you!
http://www.priscilla-mae.com/forum.
xoxo
Priscilla-Mae
http://www.priscilla-mae.com/forum.
xoxo
Priscilla-Mae
Daily Motivation
Friday, June 13, 2008
The life you choose
Life is the way you see it. Life is the way you perceive it to be.
If you constantly focus on all the things that could go wrong, things will indeed go wrong. Turn your focus to the positive possibilities, and those possibilities begin to become real.
Expect to find the resources you seek, and they will be there. Know that life's abundance is available to you, and more of it flows through your life.
From your perspective, everything is subject to your own interpretation of it. Much more important than what happens is what you make of it, and you can make of it anything you choose.
You are never at the mercy of random events unless you allow yourself to be. No matter what may come your way, you can decide what it means to you and how you will integrate it into your life.
The life you live is the life you choose to see and to experience. Choose, in this moment and every moment, to fill it with joy, meaningful purpose and fulfillment.
-- Ralph Marston
The life you choose
Life is the way you see it. Life is the way you perceive it to be.
If you constantly focus on all the things that could go wrong, things will indeed go wrong. Turn your focus to the positive possibilities, and those possibilities begin to become real.
Expect to find the resources you seek, and they will be there. Know that life's abundance is available to you, and more of it flows through your life.
From your perspective, everything is subject to your own interpretation of it. Much more important than what happens is what you make of it, and you can make of it anything you choose.
You are never at the mercy of random events unless you allow yourself to be. No matter what may come your way, you can decide what it means to you and how you will integrate it into your life.
The life you live is the life you choose to see and to experience. Choose, in this moment and every moment, to fill it with joy, meaningful purpose and fulfillment.
-- Ralph Marston
05 June 2008
RUN INS with People!
Bartended at local club in Miami a few nites ago. Just being social and fun tring to make friends. Not too picky. You nice and polite, cool lets chat about anything and everything! ;) you never know who your going to meet and more important what you may learn & experience!
Met a very interesting man, uber polite and down to earth, he even walked me to my car after my shift and turns out he's from my home state: Jersey.. sumthin in common. Come to find out he's the drummer a cool band .. link enclosed.
Thank you Ira and Nada surf for being real down to earth and most of all kind! The smallest bit of kindness goes such a long, long way! THANK YOU!!
So everyone check them out ..... http://www.nadasurf.com/
;)
Priscilla-Mae
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